Life can be so Confusing...

I have been very lost for these past few years. For me it has been years of riding an emotional roller coaster. Every time something would go wrong, my attitude would become more and more negative. I would wonder...why me? Why does this have to happen? Why does it have to be so hard?

Well now I am starting to realize “Why”, and becoming grateful for my past years and the years that follow. I have learned so much in my recent past. These are all life lessons, you may not always be aware of in the moment, however over time it becomes clear. This is God’s plan for me.

Although there are hard times that we are forced to face with in life, and maybe not always prepared to handle, for example: The loss of loved ones, relationship battles, financial war, family drama or even personal health issues. All of these experiences do not define us, but I have learned that our reactions to them do.

 “Today is the first day of the rest of your life”. If this saying is true, I plan to start it the right way. With high hopes and dreams, and a new positive attitude. Sure, life can be confusing...

Have you ever wondered if you are really on the right path, with the right person, or on the right job? Or maybe even wonder if you are reaching your full potential in life.... I know that I have.

I also believe that sometimes we replace what is right, with what we really want. And sometimes what we really want may not be what is really right for us.

So this is where life gets confusing. How do we distinguish the two? Right and Want, and who makes that ultimate decision? Do you? Or, do you allow yourself to become influenced by the opinion of other people? I think we all have been there at one point or another.

So I go back…What is really right for you?

I believe that God can dream a bigger dream for me, than I could ever imagine. He has a plan for all of us. Has there ever been a point in your life where you wondered why God has not answered your prayer? Well sometimes God’s greatest gift to you is the prayer you think he never answered.

   -I remember a while back I was praying every night for something that I believed I really wanted. Something that I thought would finally bring me happiness. One day, as I sat outside taking in all that is my life, I couldn’t help but see what a mess I had created. I began to question the true meaning of happiness. I began to doubt that I would ever find such a thing. Worst of all, I thought that God never answered my prayer!

Here’s what I have learned… Everyone has their own definition of “Happiness”. Yours is as unique to you as your finger print and no one can tell you what it is. You just know inside! The answer to my prayer would have given me “Satisfaction” opposed to “Happiness”.

So you see, God did answer my prayer!

I look back on it now and I realize… That was not his dream for me. He has a much bigger plan! 

It is now my job to read the signs and find the clues that will ultimately lead me in the right path to pursue my dream and live a "Happy Life".


-To Be Continued…